So take a photograph

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 20:17:22 GMT

I need to learn that some people wont like me. I need to learn that I can't please everyone. I have to stop molding my personal opinions into statements that will make everyone happy. I need, I repeat, NEED to stand up for myself. I have to stop trying to make everyone so damn happy. My job is driving me f.u.c.k.i.n.g crazy. It makes me the unhappiest person in the world. People need to grow up, myself included. I can like who I want. I can disslike who I want. I can make people not like me. It's okay. It's okay to not be BFFs with eveyone in the work place. I need to learn how to say "fuck you, you're wrong. Get over it." But no. I "uh-huh", "yeah I understand", myself to death. No, I don't understand. I think you're wrong. l;kdfnhkl;ASDFj[asdfpjsdf. Why are good weekends always ruined for me?

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 22:09:17 GMT

I'm confused. I'm honeslty just lost. I feel like these past few weeks I've grown distant twords people. But at the same time, I've grown closer to new people. I'm just afriad that I'm seperating myself, even though I don't mean too. I tend to stay in during the week, and no do much over the weekends. I've been spending a lot of money on God knows what and by the time Saturday hits I'm honestly just broke. I know, I should save some money. I should stop going drinking every weekend. But this month has been one of the best. Ever. Seriously. But now I feel like people arn't too happy with me. Or that I'm not doing enough. Or being a good enough friend. I'm bad at that. It's hard for me to balance so many relationships at once. I sometimes don't give my 100% in certain situations. I'm happy. I am. But there's just something holding me back, that just wont let me be happiest. I'm afriad it's guilt. Or just.. the feeling of dissapointment. I hope people arn't dissapointed in me, for whatever it is I may or may not of done. I'm rambling. ... I'll just stop.

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 04:42:18 GMT

PS.
I need a new job, ASAP. I have 2 weeks to find a full time job, with benefits. I need to quit mine.. really badly.. so if anyone has any ideas, seriously.. leave a comment and help a sistah out. :(

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 04:09:28 GMT

I'm doing a quick update.. mostly because last night was amazing. Phil got me tickets to the Fall Out Boy concert.. and considering the drama at work, I needed to have a good time or I was going to explode. We went with Grace, Julie & Kristen. We missed 2 of the bands which makes me kind of sad 'cuz I would of liked to see Cobra Starship. Either way. We saw The Academy Is.. & +44. Both were amazing. Fall Out Boy.. and this kills me to say.. were awesome. I had such a good time singin' along and acting like an asshole.

The aftermath, however, was a bit more fun. :)

Pete Wentz, you should all know who he is, was DJing at a club in Boston after the show. We decided to go (minus Kristen, cuz she works :( ) So we went.. and holy crap. He did a good job, and even though I hate him, I was impressed. The lead singer of Cobra Starship & The Academy Is.. were walking around and I got to say hi and whatnot with them. There was a bit of press people, but SO fun. I'd go into detail, but I don't want to.. I'm tired. Either way. I got wicked drunk, danced, sang, and overall had SO much fun. I seriously had the best 2 birtday celebrations ever. RCC & FOB.. awww.. :) <3

Mon, 07 May 2007 20:40:27 GMT

We can't stop here. This is Alysse country.

Which movie was this quote from?

::giggles::

Wed, 02 May 2007 02:44:15 GMT

I'm going to make this quick, mostly because I'm tired and want to go to bed.

Last Saturday, was honestly the BEST birthday celebration I could of asked for. I want to thank all of you that could come. :) It ment the world to me. It was a blast. Everyone had a good time. I got "drunk enough to dance" and drunk enough to forget about some of the bad birthdays I've had before. So yeah. I hope you people know where going to do it again, and I'm sure it will be just as fun. :)

I'm stoked to be 21. :-P

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 04:04:28 GMT

I think I'm on the verge of a breakdown. I just want to scream, and cry, and make everything go away. And it sucks.. really badly.. :\

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 16:25:34 GMT

Uh oh.

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 01:13:06 GMT

May 31 = Fall Out Boy
June 23 = The Fray.

Holy crap, I'm stoked. :-D

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 23:14:11 GMT

I doubt that anyone cares buuuuutt my cell phone charger broke, so my pbone is dead.. so I wouldn't waste your time trying to call it. If you need me for any reason call my house, or come visit me at work sometime next week.

I just don't want people to think I'm ignoring them. :P

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 21:33:30 GMT

So, I'd have to say that things are pretty damn good latly. I've been having a crap load of fun, and meeting new people. Seriously. Minus the fact that I was wicked sick last week, and have a bruised tailbone this week, I'd say life is swell.. even though I've been living at FPC. Those people currupt me. ;) I don't know, I guess I just felt like posting a "yay me" for feeling good, and enjoying life. Super!

If only I saw Ms. Pam & Ms. Heather more often, dammit. <3

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 03:15:53 GMT

Oh yeah, and I bruised my tailbone, and it hurts like a mother fucker. :(

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 03:12:25 GMT

So on May 31, I shall be drunk and at a Fall Out Boy concert. And that makes me pretty damn happy. :)

Phil/Lyd are pretty awesome.

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 22:51:45 GMT

This weekend was amazing.

I don't feel like updating but it was a fuckin' amazing time. I love my best. <3

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 23:04:54 GMT

I passed my drug test..

Yay me. :)

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 20:52:42 GMT

I feel like updating.

This weekend.. was a total blast. I'm glad it was, because this week wasn't at all fun. So I'm not going to update on the week, but I will on the weekend. Werd.

Friday; I worked till 5 and came home. I finished up my packing and ate some dinner and the Michelle came and picked me up. We got on the road to go to her school around 8:30. Less then halfway there we hit snow. A lot of snow. We almost crashed like 4 tmes.. it was great, really. But we got there, it just took us longer then usual. When we got to her school, around 10:30, we had drinks waiting for us.. Courtney is going to be the best mom ever. We kind of just hung out. We played Fuck The Dealer and just drank. I made friends with some random people outside, I don't relly remember who, though. We all kind of passed out around 3:30.

Saturday; I woke up around 12ish. We watched Employee Of The Month.. because there was nothing else on TV. After that Jackie, Mallory, Courtney, Michelle and I played Monopoly. I hate to say this, but I kicked major ass. It was down to Mallory, Michelle and me. Whenever someone landed on Free Parking, it was over. That just so happend to be me. We pretty much used all the Monopoly money. It was fun. We then played some Rat, and Old Maid while people showered. Theeen we went to the Chinese Buffet. Yumm. When we came back we played some sober asshole untill we decided we should start drinking. So we did that and then Kevin, MJ & Derek came over and played a bit.. but the boys wanted to play some beer pong. So I played a few games, but I'm not very good. They pretty much kicked our asses. Then rubbed it in, then left. \

Both nights I got pretty drunk, and both nights were a shit load of fun. I love those FPCers.. and I might be going back on Friday and then again over the long weeked.

I'm going to live there.

This post was super lame, but I didn't want to go into detail, cuz I'm silly and tired.
:)

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 15:47:00 GMT

Soo.. this week of work was interesting. It's crazy how silly some people are. I've never really been in a situation like this one before. But, basically, I get alone really well with my manager, and in some peoples eyes that makes me look like a kiss-ass. But, I'm really not. I can't help it that I click with someone better then you do. It's just aggrivating that some people have been giving me the biggest attitude because of it. Honestly, I wish people could get over themselves. Blar. I don't even know. It just sucks. So does the whole boy being back situation. I need someone to just kick me.. and tell me to get oooooover it. But I tend to have a hard time doing that. I guess I just think there's something there. I'm crazy.

Well. Minus the work thing.. life is good. There's a few changes for me this weekend. Today, soon, I'm getting my very first tattoo. :D I'm pretty stoked, actually.. and nervous. But yay. I'm also putting some red highlites back in my hair. The black bores me. I need a new change for the New Year. I'm excited for both of these events. Tattoo today, hair tommorow. New clothes tommorow too I hope. Okaaaaaaay.. i'm bored with this.. I need to go eat something.

How interesting am I? :)

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 03:10:59 GMT

I got my rook pierced. :)

I love it.

That's it.

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 04:37:30 GMT

Okay so this pretty much sucks. I don't know what happend but all of a sudden I feel so sad. I'm almost in tears for no reason and I can't seem to think my way out of it. I feel so stressed out, but there's really nothing to be stressed out about. For some reason I keep overthinking everything and it's causeing me to like.. freak out. What am I overthinking? I don't even know. Everything. My job, my friends, my life, my lack of a life, my boy situations, my permotion.. everything. Half these things don't even matter. The other half shouldn't be a problem. This doesnt even make any sense. I'm tired, and maybe even a tid bit tipsy. Which is also bad.

... im done.

eff.

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 16:28:13 GMT

Seeing as 3 out of 5 are in class.. I'll update. This weekend was pretty sweet. Friday I didn't really do much of anything. I just hung around and watched Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas with Lyd and Phil.. I didn't really care for it. Johnny Depp was in it and it was basically just two guys on drugs the entire time. Meh. I don't know. So we hung out and played Nintendo and I went to bed around 1.

Saturday I woke up at 9:30 and got dressed/finished packing. Then Phil came and picked Lyd and me up and we headed to NH. The ride was fun. It include a bit too much Panic! At The Disco.. but whateeeeeever. I shorty arrived at Franklin Pierce! YAY! We went to Subway and we all came back to the room and they ate. I met some new people, it fun. We orderd pub food and watched Zoolander. We then played some non drinking asshole because we were all too full.. but. the alchol was added shortly. I was drinking Sky vodka and Pepsi to start off.. I didn't want to do shots while playing asshole. We played Tic Tac Toe after that.. that game seriously killed me. You drinki too much too fast. So a bunch of people showed up.. I chated with a bunch of fun people. No one would do shots of Tequila with me.. Michelle had one. Then Courtney said she would and it took her 15 minutes to actually take it. But she did, and I'm proud. But I did an ut-oh and took like.. 5 shots in that 15 minutes. So I made another drink and figured I'd leave the shots alone. I was pretty tanked.. but I had a blast. Everyone started to leave around 3:30. Yeah, I went to bed around then. It was great.

Sunday I woke up around 10:30 and Michelle and I talked. Good times, good times. Courtney went to Dunkies and got everyone breakfast which we ate while making fun of a really bad Harrison Ford movie.. '6 Days, 7 Nights'. We went to Applebees. Out waiter was hott.. Jackie left her phone number.. it was great. We came back here and just chilled.. went to bed around 1.

And here I am! On Monday. Hanging with Kelly & Jackie while I wait for Michelle, Courtney & Mallory to come home from class.

I needed this weekend. :)

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 08:19:26 GMT

I hate it when I'm waking up when everyone else is going to bed. Not to mention I hate it when my boss calls me at 2:45 to tell me it's going to be 3:30, not 3:00. Yes, that 30 minutes would of meant a lot.. but instead I have to try not to fall asleep, because I'll never wake back up. Not to mention I'm working all weekend, and I'm not going to the concert on Thursday unless a something short of a miracle happens.

This week has pretty much sucked. Everything that can go wrong, has gone wrong.

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 04:13:11 GMT

So last night was fun. Pam and I went to the Boys Like Girls/Over It concert. There was a bit too much moshing, and I ended up with a very hurt nose. But that's okay. Gotta love my battle wounds.

Sooo.. this Thursday is the Lorene Drive/ Astrea/ Madina Lake/The Audition/Red Jumpsuit Apartus show.. and I want to go to it so effin bad. I already have 2 tickets.. I just lack a car/license to get to RI. So if anyone is free Thursday night and wants to go to what will be a free concert to them should really let me know. Mostly because I want to go super bad. So basically I'll give you gas money.. and you can have one of the tickets.. and you would make me a super happy girl.

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 05:41:50 GMT

I suck. I seriously suck. I'm home.. which is causing me to think. I messed up big time. I'm still stuck on it. FUCK. Why? Honestly. Why do I care so bad? Why can't I be like normal people and just get the fuck over it? I don't have many friends, and the ones I have are a-fucking-mazing.. but when I lose one, it kills me. Thisiskillingme. I feel so guilty. This is so fuckin' stupid. I really must be just stupid. It shouldn't be a big deal. People come and go. Seriously. Someone, please, kick me in the face. I give someone full permission to just slap me. I need a life. This shouldn't be as hard as it is. sadjhnsap[khnafdsp]hmSA]PFHMSf]hmS]FPKHsp]dfhfsd/. FUCK.

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 23:32:09 GMT

Soo.. let's see.

Last nights overnight was interesting. It was actually a lot of fun till 5AM rolled around. There's still so much to do. I slept all effin day, and I'm still tired. I hope I get to go to Brookline this weekend, but we might need another overnight this weekend, which means I wont be able to go. ::sadface::

I've been pretty miserable. More miserable then sad. Mostly because I'm just unhappy with things. I'm pretty much pissed off with almost everything that happend a few weeks ago. The only good thing is that I get to see Over It/Boys Like Girls/Lorene Drive/The Audition this week. Which is going to be interesting for a few different reasons. Hopefully I can get past my regret. Hopefully I can get over my self loathing. I don't like how I feel right now. Dammit.

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 18:12:12 GMT

DROPPING DAYLIGHT

November, 30 2006 at ICC Church
Not Available, Allston, Massachusetts 02134
Cost: $10

Co-Headline with Monty Are I, The Summer Obsession and Permanent Me

Anyone? Anyone?